My Path In Motherhood

The adventures of a Christian, cloth diapering, cooking enthusiast, breastfeeding, healthy-wannabe, "crunchy" mama and daughter.

One Year Ago.

Positive Pregnancy Test!

One year ago today, I decided that I should take a pregnancy test. After just 2 months of trying, and a week or so of feeling nauseous, I thought it was worth a shot. I was going to wait until the weekend, but I was wayy too excited!

Man, I remember it like it was yesterday. I can’t believe it’s been a whole year since this journey began. I was so incredibly excited that I couldn’t sleep – that’s what I get for taking a pregnancy test at 8:30pm – and I got my laptop out and began writing a letter to my unborn daughter or son, not knowing what was in store for us. I remember the Hubs waking up around midnight or so asking me what the heck I was doing so late and why I was still up. I can still hear him yelling into the bathroom as I was taking the test “It’s negative, right?” Of course we were optimistic, but didn’t want to expect it to happen that quickly.

All those unknowns – what would my baby look like? What would I look like with a hugely pregnant belly? What would our families say? Would the baby be a girl or boy? When would he/she be born? How would he/she be born? So many questions that have been answered in the last year, but there are so many more to come.

I’m just in awe of the miracle that I can hold now, that started as just a dream between two people in love, and is now a tangible, growing, lovable human being that God blessed us with. I can’t imagine what I did with all my time before Molly joined us. I know she’s just (almost) 4 months old, but I honestly can’t remember life without her. It’s like she’s always been a part of us, as corny as that sounds.

I could have never imagined the love I’d feel for her, the sense of pride, and the “mama bear” protection that I have for her. I’m amazed at each new thing she does.

 

I’ll finish up with a paragraph I wrote in the letter I started for Molly that day, a whole year ago.

“I was eating breakfast before going to Hershey Park with your cousins, I’m sure they’ll be your favorite cousins, and I was eating my bread with almond butter, and I felt like throwing up! I thought it was very strange, but I just stuck it in the back of my mind and went on to have a wonderful day riding roller coasters! You must be okay with them, because you didn’t bother me at all that day! I hope it was okay that I took you on the roller coasters, now that I googled it, I’m a little worried…

Well anyways, after feeling sick for 2 days, and not really hungry, which is very unusual for me, your daddy and I talked and decided to take a pregnancy test. Well actually, we were going to wait until Sunday, so that we could do it first thing in the morning, but I was too antsy, I couldn’t wait until Sunday, that’s too many days away! So I went and took it, after shoo-ing your dad out of the bathroom. I waited for the lines to show up, and I gasped when I saw them and put my hand over my mouth! There were two little lines there! Two! That meant that I was pregnant! Because I wasn’t making any noise, your dad thought that it was a negative, he thought I’d come screaming out if it told me that I was pregnant, but I was in shock! So, I wandered out to your daddy and said “Are you ready to be a daddy?” He just stared at me and said “Really?” I said yep, and showed him the two lines. Then he started rambling about saving money and getting bills paid off, that’s your daddy, always wanting to provide the best environment for his family.”

Happy weekend! Any big plans?
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(Almost) Wordless Wednesday, Vol. 4

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On our way to the fair Sunday afternoon. I got this bonnet from a woman in my church and it worked out perfectly for our fair outing – covered Molly’s ears since it was a bit windy and kept the sun out of her face. Although I don’t love the look of them…

Do you love the bonnet/prairie look?

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Cloth Diapers, Part 2.

If you remember back, I wanted to do a cloth diaper trial, and was just waiting for the okay from the Hubs. Well, while we were at the Bloomsburg Fair on Sunday, I had to feed Molly and I knew there was a nursing station somewhere, so after wondering around and finally finding it, I fed Molly there. After I came home, the Hubs told me that I should go check out the cloth diapers that they were selling there. I didn’t even realize that’s what they were selling there.

So I went and talked to them. They’re The Little Bee Diaper Co. and for every diaper they sell, they give a diaper to an orphan in a place where they don’t have diapers. The seller said that the batch they’re collecting from the diapers sold at the fair are going to an orphanage in Haiti where the babies are on plastic and all roll around in their own waste. It makes your heart break! I had never heard of this particular company before, but loved that the were so generous, and include a bible verse on their website about how we should help the orphans – James 1:27. They’re also a local company for me, selling diapers out of Danville, PA.

The diapers are one sized, pocket diapers, which were exactly the kinds of diapers I was looking at – Fuzzibunz, BumGenious, etc. I was pretty excited that the Hubs told me to just go ahead and do it, so I went all out – 12 diapers, extra hemp inserts, a big wet bag, diaper bag wet bag and detergent. I’m thinking next month or so I might get a few more diapers, maybe some Fuzzibunz and I’d like a few Flip diapers just because they have the disposable inserts and I think that would be super handy when on a day trip somewhere. I’ll also have to make the transition to cloth wipes, but I just bought a bunch to refill my container, so that’ll be in the next month or so.

I was nervous making such a big purchase, but I’m really excited. I keep thinking that I won’t like them and it’ll be such a waste of money, but there’s no reason why I shouldn’t like them. It’s such a savings in the long run that I’ll just have to make myself like them, there’s absolutely no reason I shouldn’t like them.

Right now, the diapers are in the wash, hopefully I’ll dry them overnight on the line, and stuff them tomorrow and we can start using them!

I’ll keep you posted, don’t worry! I’m so glad I found this company and look forward to getting their word out!

How did you pick the cloth diapers you currently use? Would you ever cloth diaper if you don’t already? 

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Molly’s First Cold.

Oh, Molly’s first cold. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, although I would have had it happen much, much later if I got to choose. I could have guessed what was coming though, my cousin came to visit last weekend (the 15th-16th) and brought her two boys, who where both sick. Well, we knew one was sick, but the other got sick once he got here. So, of course, Molly got sick. I can’t blame my cousin, she asked if it was okay they came up, and I said yes, so if anyone’s to blame, it’s me.

Monday night, I could tell Molly didn’t feel well. It sounded like something was in the back of her through, mucous or something. It didn’t really bother her, but I kept having these visions of her not being able to breathe in the middle of the night, and even though our bed is about 3 ft from her crib, it still got me nervous, so I ended up staying up until 12:30am with her sleeping on my chest, just to make sure she was okay. She was up a lot all night, but that’s expected. Tuesday morning once we got up, I called the doctor, and she just recommended watching her for a fever and getting saline drops if her nose got stuffy, which it wasn’t at that point. She said it sounded like teething, which could be involved, but I knew that wasn’t the whole thing. I don’t love the pediatrician, but for now, she’s fine.

Eventually, of course, her nose did get stuffy. I did what I could, it was a cuddle, lay in bed fest all day long. We caught up on some TV and I let Molly run the day, sleeping and eating whenever and where ever. Tuesday night, we slept in the recliner for most of the night since I figured that might be easier for us and it was. She did have a slight fever – 99.4 – so I gave her some Tylenol and it went down. Wednesday morning I called the doctor again to let her know Molly had a stuffed nose and a slight fever the previous night. She said it sounds like a cold and I could bring her in if I wanted, but there wasn’t anything she could do. I figured I’d just let it ride its course, what else can you do? It’s a cold. I wish I could make it better. We did make a trip to CVS to get nasal spray, a humidifier and some natural Vicks-type stuff. I have a bulb syringe that I’ve been trying to suck what I can out of her nose, but those things are terrible!

Wednesday night, the Hubs took some meds (we’re both fighting a cold) and slept in the recliner so Molly and I could have the whole bed. It was super sweet of him, but it was really hard to sleep with Molly all night! I’m a hard core side sleeper, so I had to literally switch sides of the bed when I wanted to sleep on the other side in order to keep Molly in the middle. It wasn’t terrible, and of course, I’d do whatever I can for Molly, but it wasn’t my favorite way of sleeping.

The Hubs bought a swing for Molly Thursday since she wouldn’t sleep anywhere except for my arms and it got to be a bit hard to do anything. Like go to the bathroom. We had one, but it was given to us, and the battery compartment was corroded. It lasted 3 months, but the corrosion got too bad and the batteries wouldn’t connect and make it swing.

As I’m writing this, Thursday morning, I’m praying Molly isn’t getting pink eye. She did have blocked tear ducts, but they were almost gone, and now her left eye is kind of goopy. It’s not really red, and she isn’t rubbing it, but my cousin that came to visit us, her son that got sick while here, has pink eye. So I’m just watching for that now. Molly’s getting frustrated with nursing since she can’t breathe out of her nose really well. Oh well, it’s a first for everyone, and all I can do it snuggle her and wait for her to get better. And be patient. Lots of patience.

Now, Sunday night, Molly doesn’t have pink eye, I think she just got some of her cold in her eye. She’s getting better, and sleeping a little better, but I’ll be very happy when this is behind us!

Hope you had a wonderful weekend!

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Sick Baby

We’ll be back to regularly scheduled posts next week, I’ve got to take this week off due to a sick Molly! I was not looking forward to this first as a parent, although I knew it was bound to happen sometime. I just hope that I don’t get sick! Mommies don’t get sick days!

Any advice to help not get sick?

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Fun Friday

Since it’s Friday, I thought it would be fun to do some random tidbits about me.

– My dream job was always a stay at home mom, but when I was little, I wanted to be a ballerina and an artist.

– My major in college was history, and I focused on American History, specifically The Civil War

– I still sleep with my blankie, even though I did “quit” it when I was little, at some point I drug it out of my baby box and it hasn’t been in there since.

– The Hubs and I met in 5th grade. We started dating in 10th grade. We never broke up.

The Hubs and I in 5th grade. Seriously.

– My parents are both severely hard of hearing. This made me grow up fast, although it was my own choice, they never made me do anything for them. I did learn some ASL when I was little, but I forgot it all. I took 2 years of ASL in college and fell in love with it again. I’d love to go back to school to be an interpreter some day.

– I love, love, love Disney World. It is my favorite place on earth. I love what it stands for and how it makes everyone feel like a kid again.

– I am a terrible dancer.

– My high school was, and still is, incredibly redneck and rural. We had a donkey basketball game my senior year. Yes, really.

Your turn! What’s one not well known fact about you? 

Happy Weekend!

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Engagement Rings

Engagement rings. That special ring your husband picked out, maybe with your guidance or help, when he proposed to you. Or something along those lines.

I got my engagement ring on February 1, 2008. I wore it on my left hand proudly until it didn’t fit on my swollen, pregnant fingers any more. Well, minus some time were my fingers decided to break out in a rash last summer and I had to take a break from my rings, but anyway, for the better part of 4 years, that ring was on my finger, accompanied by my wedding band after December 27, 2009.

Now that I have Molly, I usually only wear my wedding band when I go out, and I haven’t worn my engagement ring since my maternity pictures were taken at the beginning of May.

Why is that, you ask?

My engagement ring is sharp. Like, I-have-scratched-myself-and-others-numerous-times sharp. I didn’t want to risk it with a new baby to wear it around her and possibly scratch her. So it sits in my jewelry box, waiting to be worn for special occasions I suppose.

I know my mom stopped wearing her engagement ring after she had me (her first born), because she didn’t want it to get ruined. It just makes me think, when do most moms stop wearing their engagement ring? Is is a generational thing? You rarely see an older woman wearing her engagement ring everyday. At least I haven’t seen any.

When did you/are you planning on putting your engagement ring back in the jewelry box?

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(Almost) Wordless Wednesday, Vol. 3

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Molly’s sleeping habits have been horrendous. Well, I guess not for some moms, but we were doing 8 hour stretches here folks! But anyways, I still bring Molly in bed with me after the Hubs leaves for work, whip out a boob and we both drift back to sleep. Although I was awake in the picture, this is how we sleep until about 8:30 or so.

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No More Tracking

After my post last week about tracking Molly’s feeding sessions and diaper changes, I decided to take the plunge and stop tracking. I figured it was time, and I’ve actually really enjoyed not having to worry about “looking right” on the graphs and worrying about whether someone would look at it and find some kind of fault with it.

Now at Molly’s next appointment and they ask me how often I feed her, I can honestly say “whenever she’s hungry” and not even give them a time period. I’m pretty excited, it’s actually liberating.

The only problem I had was figuring out how to remember which side to feed on next. Molly is a one side nurser, so I can never remember which side I feed on last. After asking advice on twitter, some moms said they could just feel which side was fuller and I most definitely can not. My right side is always fuller so thats out. Jana mentioned that her mom used a ribbon on her nursing bra to remind her and I thought that was a really good idea! So I put a bobby pin on my bra, but that didn’t work out since it would stick out of my shirt so I started wearing a bracelet and switching it to the appropriate wrist after a feeding. Works like a charm!

All in all, I’m happy I quick cold turkey from tracking and I feel a lot more relaxed and I actually think Molly goes longer between feedings because I get her go as long as she wants to.

When was the last time you took a chance?

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Napping Problems.

I mentioned it in Miss Molly’s 3 month update, but we don’t have a nap schedule yet. I’m totally okay with not having much of a schedule since I’m home every day, and am flexible with my plans. Even if we’re out and about during “nap time” Molly will pass out in the Ergo since I’m usually wearing her during errands.

It would be nice though to have some time to myself during the day. Molly doesn’t nap for more than 30-40 minutes usually. Very rarely it’s longer than that and if it is, it’s almost always in our arms. I really wanted to let her figure out her own schedule, and for bedtime – about 8:30 or so, through 9:30am we have a schedule down pretty well. It’s just during the day I’m still trying to figure it all out.

 

Since we only have one room as a result of living with my parents, I know I can’t vacuum or anything during nap time, and that’s fine with me. I’m not much a cleaner anyway, although I know I need to step it up once Molly starts crawling – I’m sure dust bunnies aren’t part of the healthy foods to first give baby. Also, as a result of living with my parents, usually once my Mom comes home from work, I sit in the kitchen with her and talk until it’s time for me to make dinner. Of course, I know I could bring Molly in our room with me and try to get her to nap in her crib, but I love talking to my mom, she’s my best friend!

 

Morning naps usually happen in the crib since my mom is working. I still can’t get more than 40 minute stretches though. I’m at the point where I’ve just come to the conclusion that Molly is just a cat napper. She doesn’t get cranky, but I don’t know how to get her to sleep longer. She usually takes 4-5 cat naps each day, although we have some days, like yesterday, that are totally off. She napped for a little bit in the Ergo while walking around Wegmans, and then napped on and off in the swing for at least 1.5 hours in the afternoon and was up until bedtime. I guess I should try to utilize the swing more and see if that helps.

 

I did mention the cat napping to the pediatrician, and right away she told me that she should be taking two 1 1/2 hour naps and we should keep her awake from 4:30pm until bedtime. I think that’s a little strict, and I’m not on the same page with the pediatrician for some things, so yeah, it would be awesome for Molly to fall into that schedule, but that’s not her schedule.

 

All in all, I think I want to know that it’s okay for Molly to cat nap. I feel like everyone I talk to has their baby into a morning nap and afternoon nap routine, and I’m curious as to how they got to that point.

 

How did you come up with a nap schedule?

 

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