My Path In Motherhood

The adventures of a Christian, cloth diapering, cooking enthusiast, breastfeeding, healthy-wannabe, "crunchy" mama and daughter.

Five Months Old.

My Molly, sweet baby girl,

You’re 5 months old now! I can’t believe how quickly time is going. You’re almost one half of a year old, and that’s enough to make me cry! I love every second we spend together, even if I get a little short with you when you won’t go to sleep in your crib. You are my little buddy, even more so now that you’re a bit older. We go everywhere together and have a blast doing it.

This month we switched pediatricians. I’m really happy with this switch, and I hope you are, too. Other than a few short stints in disposable diapers, we are full time cloth diapering now. We had to use disposables while the power was out due to Hurricane Sandy, but it suuuucked! We went through 3 outfit changes, they just can’t contain poop! I love our cloth diapers, hard core, and am glad we finally took the plunge.

18 weeks old

You are still in 3-6 month clothing, although I think we’ll be switching your pajamas pretty soon since the nighttime cloth diaper is so thick from so many layers that we have to put in it. I’ve already been buying some 9 & 12 month clothes so that we have a good amount for when you grow into them. Every time I get something in the mail, I can’t imagine you being big enough to fit in it, but I know you will.

You started this new thing where you hate putting your pajamas on at night. You’re good during the day, it’s just jammies at night that you fuss for. Bizarre, but cute. Favorite toys? Sophie the giraffe, tags on anything – burp cloths, books, your blankie – cloth books to chew and suck on.

Sleeping has been okay, I thought we actually solved the sleeping issue at the beginning of last month when we put you to bed later, you slept longer, until about 3am and I was so excited, but then we had some wake ups at midnight or so. The past few nights, I’ve just been bringing you in bed with us. It’s easier and I think we both sleep better that way. I don’t mind, I know you’ll only be little once and I’ll enjoy the extra cuddles! Nighttime routine? Daddy gives you a bath if its bath night, then lotion, diaper on, playtime, books, prayers, and nursing to sleep. Sometimes you’re out for the night, or at least a few hours, and other times you get up in a half hour or so. If you wake up, I nurse you back to sleeps then you’re out.

Naps are almost always taken in your crib, and we have a sporadic 2 hour nap occasionally, but most of the time they’re only about 45 minutes or so. I started a bad habit of nursing you to sleep now, I don’t know when it started, or how it started, but it’s firmly in place now. Granted, Grammy and Daddy can get you to sleep for a nap, but I have to nurse you. I don’t mind though, it’s our cuddle time. You’ll sleep in the car though, no problem at all. We’ve transitioned from a swaddle to a sleep sack this month – you grew out of your swaddles. Your arms were never in your swaddle, so it wasn’t a problem if you rolled over.

19 weeks old

Speaking of nursing, breastfeeding is still going fantastically. I haven’t had to give you any formula at all, and I think we’ll be able to make it to our one year goal, and beyond even! You still haven’t had any solid foods, I think we’ll wait until after your 6 month check-up to start that. I’m not in a rush at all to start solids. I’m aiming to follow a laid-back, baby-led weaning approach, since that seems to make the most sense. It will definitely keep me thinking about what I’m cooking for the family since you’ll be eating it, too! I’d like to do some purees though, just because you can’t eat everything with your fingers – like yogurt and soups. I’m excited to start it, but then at the same time, I know it’s a new chapter, and I don’t know that I’m ready for you to grow up like that yet!

Rolling has been getting better, I think it’s safe to say that you can roll consistently from your belly to your back, it’s just the other way that’s a little slow. I’m not worried though, you’re working on sitting up like a big girl, and I’d be okay if you just didn’t roll at all. I know all babies develop differently! You’ve even been pushing your shoulders and chest up now, and I’ve watched you push your legs up like a plank, but while your elbows are still on the ground. You’ll be crawling before we know it!

20 weeks old

Your laugh is just contagious! We’ve gotten more and more laughs, and I just love it. I got a few on video so we have them saved. More and more people are able to get you to laugh, too, and I know they all love it. I love seeing your face light up when I walk into a room. You follow me everywhere with your eyes, and you usually have to be able to see me, especially if you’re cranky. If you see me walk out of a room, you’ll fuss immediately. I think Daddy doesn’t really like that, but I’m home with you all the time! What does he expect?

You make friends wherever you go, smiling at every stranger that compliments you. I hope you keep that bubbly, smiley personality!

No teeth yet, but you’re drooling and chewing on everything in sight. I keep checking to see if I can feel anything, but nothing yet. Your hair is getting a little more sparse, but it’s still red and curly. I hope you keep the red, I would love that! I don’t think the curls would go anywhere since Daddy and I both have red hair, and I hope that I can teach you to embrace the curls and not hate them like I did. You still have a good amount of hair on the bottom back of your head, and the curls are still there on the top, but the balding around the middle is spreading.

21 weeks old

You had your first Halloween, and Daddy had his first birthday as a daddy! You were going a little monkey for trunk or treat at church, but the costume didn’t stay on long since it was so hot. We should have just bought you a Halloween onesie and called it good. Oh well, lesson learned.

I’m trying to think if there’s anything else, but I think I covered most things. I love you baby girl, to the moon and back. I love every moment we spend together!

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It’s Official.

We have a new pediatrician! Last Tuesday, I met with a new pediatrician – the husband of the doctor who delivered Molly. I talked about switching pediatricians in this post.

He was exactly what I was looking for in a pediatrician! Now I’m kicking myself for not expanding my search while I was pregnant. Right now, the main things on my mind are starting solids, and possibly extended breastfeeding. He and his wife did baby-led weaning with their son, who is 2 1/2 now, and that’s what I’m really interested in doing with Molly. He also said that his son didn’t really get the hang of solids until he was 13 months old, and was just fine.

I asked about when he’s not there, and he said that there’s always another physician or physician’s assistant on call if he isn’t there. If it’s the middle of the night, there’s an answering service to call, and they’ll either answer whatever question I have, and if they aren’t comfortable with the situation, they’ll call him – he’s always on call. He just seemed really pleasant and nice and said what I wanted to hear – the partnership between patient and doctor is a partnership. No one knows my children better than me, and he knows that. He’s there to give his medical opinion about raising children.

I’m really excited to switch, and the worry that I would have to get Molly’s medical records from her old pediatrician was completely unwarranted, they’re going to call and have them fax the records to the new doctor. Whew! That was my biggest fear I think.

Do you tend to question authority or just take a doctor’s opinion for what it is? 

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(Almost) Wordless Wednesday, Vol. 6




For real, Molly can sit up pretty well on her own! You have to make sure she’s bending forward enough, but she’s got some really good balance! Forget rolling – which she still isn’t doing – we’re onto sitting!


La Leche Meeting

Last Tuesday, I went to my first La Leche Meeting. The local chapter meets once a month, and I had been meaning to go, but I totally chickened out each month for one reason or another.

Last month, I turned to their Facebook group for help with Molly’s terrible sleeping situation and I’m happy to say that they were kind, understanding, and helpful in making sure I didn’t loose my mind nor sanity. I felt like after that, I had to go to a meeting. I posted on the group that I was going and wanted to know if anyone was willing to let me follow them since I wasn’t exactly sure where I was going. Another woman responded, one I was actually (Facebook) friends with, I went to high school with her – we were even in Girl Scouts together way back when. She mentioned she didn’t have a car and would like to ride up with me if possible. I was excited that I had a buddy and that I couldn’t chicken out so easily!

I was nervous to go, but knew I needed to keep my promise to Sam, since I was picking her up and taking her. Even though I hadn’t seen her in 6 years, and we weren’t friends in high school, it was an enjoyable ride to the meeting, we talked the whole time about our birth experiences – she had a home birth with nearly no recovery!

We were the first ones at the meeting, but I’m so glad we went. I’m glad I had a buddy to go with and I’m glad I met new moms! There were about 10 moms with babies/toddlers, 3 older leaders, and 1 woman who was pregnant with her first. I felt like I found my people. We talked about nursing, starting solids, birth stories, motherhood and it was just amazing. There was advice, no judgement and just good conversation. And food! They had food! I loved seeing all the kids and babies, ranging from pre-teen down to 6 weeks old. It was great to be able to nurse and not worry about anyone giving you the stink eye. Coincidentally, there were 2 other girls born the same day as Molly! One in the same hospital! So weird! It was nice to talk to the moms and see where they were developmentally in comparison to Molly.

I am so glad I got to go and I am definitely planning on going each month from here on out!

Have you ever been to a La Leche League meeting? What did you think?

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(Almost) Wordless Wednesday, Vol. 5


Having fun with daddy’s hat!

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Choosing a New Pediatrician

While I was pregnant, I interviewed two local pediatricians and didn’t really like either of them. I picked the one I liked a little bit better, but I never really felt comfortable with her. She talks a lot, and doesn’t let me talk much. We’ve only seen her a few times – Molly’s 5 day appointment, 6 week check-up, 2 and 4 month check-up – and I called her when Molly was sick because I thought she had pink eye. I never really had a problem with her, but it just doesn’t feel right. I feel like everything lines up for me to like her, but I just don’t. She’s won multiple awards in our area, she’s local, gives her cell phone out to patients and will come into her office at any time since she lives close by and I love all that about her, I just don’t connect with her, if that makes sense.

Now that Molly is a little older, I have more things that are on my mind, specifically starting solids and continuing breastfeeding, which I love. At Molly’s last appointment, the Dr. told me to start rice cereal and then simple fruits and veggies this month – at 4 months – then chicken and turkey next month. She actually asked me what I thought about it, gave me a second to open my mouth and then proceeded to talk about something else. Yep, wonderful. Oh, she also told me to not buy into the organic garbage since it can’t be proven and they’re just making you pay more for the same product as conventional.

I want to write a separate post about it, but I have no intention of starting Molly out on solids before 6 months, she’s sleeping better than she was, only up at 2 or 3, then waking up about 6 to come in bed with me after the Hubs goes to work, and sleeping again until 8 or so. She’s content with just breast milk, and that’s all I’m comfortable giving her right now. That was one thing we disagreed on, but the Dr. always concludes with “you’re the mom, you do what’s best for you” which I appreciate so much.

I’ve been toying with the idea of switching pediatricians, but I’m such a chicken. The Dr. who delivered Molly, her husband is a pediatrician and so I asked her for his name, figuring that since she and I agreed on everything we talked about, he would have to be in the same boat. I finally got up enough courage today and called to set up a meeting with him. Fun for us, it’s at 8:15am next Tuesday morning, but since I’m not a paying patient, he’s meeting with me before his regular patients.

I’m nervous, I don’t know why, but I am. I think I’m scared that if I like him and switch, I have to pick up Molly’s medical records at her current pediatrician and she’ll question why I’m leaving her practice. I’m also nervous about what questions to ask. I don’t know why I wasn’t nervous to interview pediatricians while I was pregnant, but I am now. Doesn’t make sense to me either.

I can’t put my thumb on why I don’t like my current pediatrician exactly. We just don’t mesh. I went to a la leche league meeting – again, another post – and some of the moms admitted to downright lying to their pediatrician about the number of times they were nursing their babies, or when they started solids. I’m sure pediatricians know that not everyone is completely honest with them with their answers, but I’m not so comfortable doing that. It’s not like Molly even has a medical issue that I see the doctor all the time, each time we’ve been, she’s said nothing but good things about Molly’s growth and health.

Oh well, I’ll keep you updated!

What was the last time you didn’t mesh with someone?
How did you pick your pediatrician? Do you lie to them?

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Loving Cloth.

We have been officially in cloth diapers for 2 weeks, so I wanted to update you!

Well, lets clarify, when I say in cloth diapers, I mean 100% during the day, but we’re still using disposables at night. The first night we did cloth, Molly didn’t leak, but the second night she was soaked and leaked, and the third, I put her in a disposable at 1:30am. Now, with disposables, I don’t change her diaper from about 7:30pm until about 9am and I was hoping I could do the same with cloth. I don’t know if I don’t have enough inserts or what, but I don’t really feel like doing a diaper change in the middle of the night.

I didn’t have to buy any disposables, since we weren’t planning on buying cloth that quickly, I had just bought 2 small packs of disposables the week before, so I’m using them. I would, of course, love to switch to cloth full time, but I don’t know how to go about figuring out the correct diaper & inserts for nighttime.

Other than that dilemma, I do love the cloth! They’re adorable, and we haven’t had a blow out yet. Granted, we haven’t pooped during a car ride yet, so that might have something to do with it…
I love how easy they are, and I think I’ve gotten my washing routine down – cold rinse, hot wash with detergent and an extra rinse, plus another extra rinse. I haven’t dried them yet, I just hang them on the line my mom has in the laundry room, and let them go until the next washing day. I wash Monday, Wednesday, and Friday in case you were wondering.

I have a total of 25 diapers, 21 little bee company diapers, 3 flip diapers – purchased because I wanted the option of a disposable liner when we’re out for the day – and one bum genius that I won from twitter. I haven’t used the flip or bum genius, but I will say that while comparing them, I like how the little bee diapers have elastic on the front of them, it seems more “secure” than the others. I’ll let you know how they work out!

Now for some adorable pictures!





If you cloth diaper, what to you use overnight?

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Foto Friday.


If you follow me on twitter (link on the right) or Instagram (megangwen314), you might have seen this picture when I posted it, but I wanted to share it here, too. Molly found her foot this week! She can’t really pick it up herself, but she’s really noticing it and its adorable!

Happy weekend, any exciting plans? It’s going to be a wash-out here this weekend so nothing exciting for us.

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4 Month Update.

My dearest Molly,

14 Weeks Old.

You’re growing up so fast – almost 4 months old, starting to roll over, you’ve done it a few times, but not consistently yet. While I was cleaning today, I knew you were awake from your nap, but I just let you play and you must have rolled over because I found you on your tummy! On Saturday, Grammy, Aunt Jeannie and I were on the table trying to get you to roll, and you did from your tummy to your back, but I don’t think you really knew what you had done and you haven’t done it since. You’re grabbing toys and bringing them to your mouth. If we wiggle our fingers in front of you, you grab them and try to eat them, too. You learned how to pop your pacifier out of your mouth. I’m still waiting for you to suck your thumb to go to sleep, and hoping that you are a thumb sucker!

You got your first cold this month, we’re on the tail ends of it. We had some pretty sleepless nights, but you handled it like a champ! A few calls to the doctor, but we never had to visit her. I was worried you got pink eye since Colton had it and he was here to visit last weekend, but I guess not. I think it was just the cold that got your eyes all goopy. I’ve been thinking about changing your pediatrician, but don’t really know where to start. I messaged Dr. Lincoln, the doctor who delivered you, I know her husband is a pediatrician and I wonder what he’s like. I asked her for any recommendations she might have for me.

15 Weeks Old.

Sleeping isn’t going so well. I don’t think you’ve slept good all month long. We were doing 8 hour stretches and then you just decided you didn’t like that anymore. It’s a little frustrating, but I know it’ll work itself out. There have been a few nights on the recliner, and while you were sick, Daddy actually slept on the recliner one night so we could sleep in the bed together, which was nice. I hope you get back to your long stretches, I know I was a little spoiled, but I got used to them for sure!

Breastfeeding is still going well! I love that time we have together. I stopped tracking our sessions this month, it was getting me crazy to make sure you were eating long enough and often enough, but I just need to trust you and trust my body. I don’t pump either, haven’t since we were at the beach, and I don’t want to pump at all. I know it will get me nervous to think that however much I pump is an indication of my supply, which I know it isn’t, and I’ll get nervous I’m loosing milk. You’re still content most of the time and don’t get cranky after feedings or anything, so I’m trusting my body and trusting you! I know Daddy wishes he could feed you, but just nursing you myself is way easier, I don’t have to wash any parts or bottles, and it’s always the right temperature. I don’t have to carry anything extra around either.

16 Weeks Old.

We just started cloth diapering this week. It was something I really wanted to do, more so to save money than anything else, but the saving environment is handy, too. We got the cloth diapers at the Bloomsburg Fair. We were going to do a trial to see if we liked them, but the company at the fair seems to be a great company and they were on sale, no shipping, that kind of thing, so we decided to just go for it! So far, I really like them, I ordered some leg warmers for you so we can show off your cute diapers instead of hiding them under pants! I can just picture you as a toddler walking around in a t shirt, cloth diaper and leg warmers! So cute!

Your hair is still red, and you still have all of it! I don’t think your hair is going to fall out. Mine, on the other hand, is coming out in hand fulls! I have to clean the drain at least 2 times during each shower. When I shampoo my hair, it’s at least 4 or 5 times. It’s crazy. I’ve decided I’m going to cut it short again, and I’m pretty excited about it! Back to you though, you only have a bald spot on the back of your head from where you rub it when you move your head. It’s pretty funny and cute.

17 Weeks Old.

We’re working on laughing, too. I got a good video of you laughing, but it’s a rare occurrence. You smile for everyone and anyone who meets you just loves it! You take most naps in your crib during the day, although sometimes I just want to soak it all up and hold you for a nap. I still rock/walk or nurse you to sleep, mostly during the day I’ll put your right arm under my left arm and hum “Amazing Grace,” if you’re tired enough, you’ll be out in less than 5 minutes. I’m usually the only one that can put you to sleep like that. Daddy tries, but it doesn’t work out unless your really tired. At night, I nurse you to sleep. Granted, you’re usually not totally asleep when I put you in the crib, so that’s a good thing. Tummy time is way more enjoyable now than it was a month ago. You don’t fuss much at all when I put you on your belly until you’re tired of it.

You still talk up a storm to everyone, it’s adorable! You were size 1 diapers, and most of your clothes are 3-6 months. I’ve been buying some 6 month stuff so I don’t have to spend a ton of money when you outgrow your 3-6 month clothes.

I love your chubby thighs and dimples on your butt and thighs. So adorable! Every time we undress you for a bath, which Daddy always gives you, I have you stand up on the sink and I just adore those dimples! Daddy thinks I’m a weirdo, but oh well. You’re the apple of our eye, and I can’t imagine life without you baby girl. Can’t wait for your doctors appointment next week to see how much you weigh and how long you are!



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One Year Ago.

Positive Pregnancy Test!

One year ago today, I decided that I should take a pregnancy test. After just 2 months of trying, and a week or so of feeling nauseous, I thought it was worth a shot. I was going to wait until the weekend, but I was wayy too excited!

Man, I remember it like it was yesterday. I can’t believe it’s been a whole year since this journey began. I was so incredibly excited that I couldn’t sleep – that’s what I get for taking a pregnancy test at 8:30pm – and I got my laptop out and began writing a letter to my unborn daughter or son, not knowing what was in store for us. I remember the Hubs waking up around midnight or so asking me what the heck I was doing so late and why I was still up. I can still hear him yelling into the bathroom as I was taking the test “It’s negative, right?” Of course we were optimistic, but didn’t want to expect it to happen that quickly.

All those unknowns – what would my baby look like? What would I look like with a hugely pregnant belly? What would our families say? Would the baby be a girl or boy? When would he/she be born? How would he/she be born? So many questions that have been answered in the last year, but there are so many more to come.

I’m just in awe of the miracle that I can hold now, that started as just a dream between two people in love, and is now a tangible, growing, lovable human being that God blessed us with. I can’t imagine what I did with all my time before Molly joined us. I know she’s just (almost) 4 months old, but I honestly can’t remember life without her. It’s like she’s always been a part of us, as corny as that sounds.

I could have never imagined the love I’d feel for her, the sense of pride, and the “mama bear” protection that I have for her. I’m amazed at each new thing she does.


I’ll finish up with a paragraph I wrote in the letter I started for Molly that day, a whole year ago.

“I was eating breakfast before going to Hershey Park with your cousins, I’m sure they’ll be your favorite cousins, and I was eating my bread with almond butter, and I felt like throwing up! I thought it was very strange, but I just stuck it in the back of my mind and went on to have a wonderful day riding roller coasters! You must be okay with them, because you didn’t bother me at all that day! I hope it was okay that I took you on the roller coasters, now that I googled it, I’m a little worried…

Well anyways, after feeling sick for 2 days, and not really hungry, which is very unusual for me, your daddy and I talked and decided to take a pregnancy test. Well actually, we were going to wait until Sunday, so that we could do it first thing in the morning, but I was too antsy, I couldn’t wait until Sunday, that’s too many days away! So I went and took it, after shoo-ing your dad out of the bathroom. I waited for the lines to show up, and I gasped when I saw them and put my hand over my mouth! There were two little lines there! Two! That meant that I was pregnant! Because I wasn’t making any noise, your dad thought that it was a negative, he thought I’d come screaming out if it told me that I was pregnant, but I was in shock! So, I wandered out to your daddy and said “Are you ready to be a daddy?” He just stared at me and said “Really?” I said yep, and showed him the two lines. Then he started rambling about saving money and getting bills paid off, that’s your daddy, always wanting to provide the best environment for his family.”

Happy weekend! Any big plans?